seems happy not always good

seems happy not always good.
i hate myself when i can't show the truth.
huhuhuhuhuhu..........................................
emang sihh kadang ada untungnya, lu terlihat strong! HAHAHAHA
tapi yang ga enaknya, ya lo akan ngerasa bodoh karena gabisa nunjukkin apa yang sebenernya terjadi sama diri lo, ini sangat menyiksa loh teman-teman.
lu sedih, ga ada yang tau
lu seneng, biasanya juga keliatan gitu, jadi ga ada yang perduli juga lu seneng gara-gara apa.

pernah ada situasi dimana gue lagi sedih pada saat itu.
g(ue) : May, gue sedih deeeeh
M(aya) : ah tampanglu ga bikin simpatik, ga keliatan kaya orang sedih.
dan gue pun langsung teriaaaak dalam hati. miris banget bok temen sebangku gue aja gatau dan gabisa liat klo gue lagi sedih apalagi orang lain.......................................................


mungkin salah satu yang gue rasain yaitu rasa kangen yang gabisa gue tunjukkin dan ga bisa gue ungakapin.
gue bisa tahan ber abad-abad ga contact sama lo.
gue juga bisa tahan gatau apa-apa tentang lo.
tapi gue ga bisa tahan rasa kangen (maaf ya agak dangdut bahasanya)
kangen karena lo udah biasa ada saat gue mau cerita, kangen karena lo udah biasa ada saat gue butuh lo. tapi sekarang??????? gue butuh apa lo tau?

i miss you so much, Boy!!!!
i miss the way you make me laugh, we shared each other, we had an argument, we apologized and then we compromised.
can you imagine???

please tell me, what can i do if i miss you???????
telfon??? gela gue ga seberani itu.
nyapa di MSN??takut elunya ga nanggepin ntar gue malah sakit hati huauauauauauuaua.
atau melakukan hal-hal bodoh lainnya yang biasa gue lakukan??? (ada hal bodoh yang biasa gue lakukan kalo gue lagi kangen hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahah o,O tapi itu ga ngaruh loooooooh tetep aja kangen)

gue cuma mau saat gue seneng ya gue lompat-lompat layaknya anak kecil dapet lolipop, dan saat gue sedih, ya gue nangis.

Look at me You may think you see Who I really am But you'll never know me Every day, is as if I play apart Now I see If I wear a mask I can fool the world But I can not fool My heart Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? I am now In a world where I have to Hide my heart And what I believe in But somehow I will show the world What's inside my heart And be loved for who I am Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection Someone I don't know? Must I pretend that i'm Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? There's a heart that must Be free to fly That burns with a need To know the reason why Why must we all conceal What we think How we feel Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? I won't pretend that i'm Someone else For all time When will my reflections show Who I am inside? When will my reflections show Who I am inside? yaudah deeh sekian postingan gue kali ini, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~